What I Miss

I was thinking recently about what I miss most about being in a relationship.  These are the main things I came up with:

• I miss having someone to be cuddle up next to on lazy Saturday afternoons after the errands have been run and the chores have been finished.
• I miss having someone I can cook meals for, especially a big Saturday night dinner.
• I miss having someone to watch stupid TV shows with and laugh at how stupid they are (it's no fun by yourself).
• I miss having someone I want to shave my face for on the weekend, so I'm not halfway to a beard by the time I shave for church on Sunday.
• I miss having someone to just hang out with and talk to all the time.

Did you notice a pattern?  Yeah, Saturdays are still tough.  This past Saturday was really depressing because I didn't have any significant human interactions (interacting with a cashier doesn't count as significant).  While the ultimate goal is to have a wife and family to be around, even just having a girlfriend -- or a girl I'm dating but we haven't committed to be a couple -- still would give me someone that I can see and talk to and keep Saturdays from being a bad thing.  I can also hang out with friends and family, but it's hard to ask someone if I can hang out with them because I'm afraid I'm going to be sad if I don't.

We're still a couple of months away from my divorce being finalized, but once it's all done, I hope it doesn't take me long to be able enjoy Saturdays again on a regular basis.