Allison's been served. That means that our divorce is finally moving forward. This is something that I've been working towards for months. I've had several confirmations from the Spirit that this divorce is needed and necessary and I've been frustrated with the delays we've had with making this happen.
So, imagine my surprise that when I had finished making arrangements with Allison for her to receive the summons, that I broke down crying. After all the pain and frustration I've already experienced, I didn't think I had any tears left.
This is another reminder that love is complicated. You hurt someone and they hurt you and they hate you and you can't help but get angry when you talk to them and the best thing for both of you is to end your relationship, but you're still sad to see them go. You remember how they laughed at your jokes and how they pushed you to be a better student and how the smell of their mouth was the most wonderful aroma you've ever experienced. Despite all of the reasons that prove you need to go your separate ways, you're still sad about it and wish it could have ended differently.
Not knowing how to process these feelings, I shared them with Allison. She confessed that she was sad too, adding that it was "weird." Yeah, after all this time, it is weird to feel sad about getting divorced. Weird, but, again, for the best.
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