Reassigned

I missed my first deadline and because the document I was working was large and cumbersome (it will probably be a couple hundred pages when its completed), it was taken away from me.  I can't say I'm shocked, but it still hurt - I actually teared up while I was in my boss' office, but I gained control quickly enough that I was able to reabsorb the moisture before anything fell out of my eyes (my boss never mentioned it and may have thought it was due to allergies).

What does that mean for me now?  It means that I'm working on a completely different assignment that I've not spent time with before, so all the research I did for the last assignment needs to be repurposed for the new document, something that I'm not sure quite how to do yet.

Now for some good news: because I am currently working on a document that will be used for the same software program as the last document, I am going in with a much better understanding of how the program works.  And since I've exercised everyday this week, I seem to be focusing better while I work, making me a more effective writer.

While my boss never said that my job is in jeopardy, I can't imagine that missing my first deadline reflects well on me.  I am determined to meet my deadline for my new assignment, both as a means to secure my future with the company, but also to prove to my boss that she hired the right person.